this is a very busy busy wk.
yesterday i bought a bit of stuff. sports shoes, shorts, a top...
i guess that's abt it la. but considering i've been trying to save $$ for the expected amt i'll have to spend in france...
anyway, there's last driving lesson today, briefing for camp
driving test tomorrow and training on wed.
camp thurs-fri
and dinner with heng, fionne, yuani and maybe zesa on fri.
a v. busy wk.
my cousin's coming on sat somemore. i'm going to be packed. and i still have to add all the washing i have to do...
that aside, i'm slightly disturbed that i'm irritated with certain friends of mine because we hardly meet and it's like we don't even have proper talking conversations anymore...even though we do at least meet once every few mths...i mean it's q sad but if i think properly myself i don't really make much of an effort either, so i can't exactly blame others. but sometimes i feel that it's because i've tried and tested and it's very tiring to always be the one trying so i guess i just give up and let everything take its course.
i'm glad i'm still ok with lisa, but i have to say joelle and i hardly talk already. and when we meet sometimes there's so much that has gone by and so much that she doesn't know i don't know where to start and how to tell her or i'm not even sure if she cares or will understand. i guess it's vice versa also but i don't q know how to try to change anything. she's so far away in australia, and i'm just so lazy PLUS she doesn't reply emails... so i guess my circle of friends is reducing and like i have only a few ppl i can fall back/ call if i need or want to do anything or nothing( i can count on one hand and still have fingers left over). i mean it's not exactly very sad that i have so ppl to rely on because i know it's not qty that counts. but just when u sit back and think abt the ppl who were once v impt to u but am not so much so anymore u feel it's such a loss...
i think if i am lucky enough to find a job back in hk after i graduate i wouldn't be missing out on much here so i guess that's a plus....haha.
OKAY. i think that's the undercurrent motivation for me to work hard after all....hahahahha. i really miss my extended family there. i think i don't need so many friends because just hanging out with them takes all my time away...
wah. i don't know why i'm talking like that...OK. byeee.
