omg. i really had super bad hair day in many many of my pics. some of them are so ugly i really feel like deleting away...
but i'm afraid that if i do i'll regret it in the end so nvm.

i can't sleep cause i have to think of a time where i CHOSE to make a contribution above and beyond the call of duty. it's really challenging u know. like ppl are dying and i still have think of when was the last time i went the extra mile... i mean i'm q sure i DID somewhere in my hum drum life, but i seriously can't remember where (cause of course i don't remember every single nice thing i do because i do not it out of goodwill-aww...whatever).

tsk. anyway yes, on the way home after total war today i realized i haven't talked to kt for one whole mth. like no contact and all. i did a bitchy post like one mth back, phong and huihui said it was really obvious. ): i wonder whether she DOES read my blog although i don't think so la. even though she's seen it before. sigh. it's like usually if i certain things i really want to tell someone i just drop her a email or msg or something...but i keep trying to keep my promise to myself...it's kinda sad. i mean okay fine, maybe she didn't mean to mean and all....and that she's LIKE THAT...but i was really upset about it la (as can be seen from my silent resistance!!) hahaha. okay. i think i'm retarded. but like u know i think she's the kind that...i kinda think won't really appreciate u sort...and i'm a true human being, and i feel upset when ppl don't appreciate me alright. i'm that human. so yes. i wish i could say i don't get affected but no, i shall not lie to myself. anyway i was thinking, her bf's back/will be back soon...so she wouldn't be free/want to be free right...so yes.. sigh. ):

i can't wait to go back to HK year end. miss everybody and i can really run away from feeling guilty about sleeping early because it's a sin to do so...omg.

bye

i'm feeling slightly hungry still...i think i'm just greedy actually. cause i can feel my stomach bulging.
oh gosh...it's so sad...how can i ever ever get rid of it??

supposed to go back to my reading...but these few days i keep thinking and i guess i should be less stressed up about all the grades and everything...so is hould just do well enough for everything and that's fine. i think so...

so maybe i shall treat myself to icecream after this...!! omg.

the past few days i apparently exercised like mad. friday, i decided to go for a run around the nature reserve cause we had a game agst some australian team on sat and i didn't want to die cause i can't run....and then sat morning we had IFG ultimate frisbee...and then in the afternoon i had the friendly game. think i had a rather fun sat though...like i kinda miss hockey...

but i'm so not looking forward to all the trainings!! it's so darn crazy...i swear. hmmm...

and the projects keep coming..i wonder when they'll ever end. and MAYBE we're eating steamboat this weekend...

omg. my posts are highly boring and not intellectual. must be because of the sour-ish egg sandwich i ate. EWWW.


bye. am really in need of rest. i see my eyebags.