wow. am slightly surprised that ppl do read my humble blog. haha. what the hell.
i really should go to the toilet now since i have a stomachache.
anyway, i slept 4 hrs this morning and i just started to do my readings again...like i remembered on tues i was so satisfied with myself cause i did most of the things i wanted to do but here i am again i just realized that there's so much i have not touched on. so yes...i have to rush rush rush again...i wish i could read faster but i really have to get the pts of my readings so i have to do it slowly and with detail. gosh.

oh yes. so yesterday we had VELA bbq at my house downstairs. they all came late but was rather nice although nic's bf did everything and jia hui joined in after awhile. so the girls just sat and chatted and the two guys discussed about the fire(!!!)

was really quite fun...esp all the photos...everybody in VELA's kinda mad. so it was q heartening. but like there was this really gross black yucky cat. and i made jia hui scare it away. he very weirdly tried to use his "meow-ing" ring tone to do so.

talked about de. and realized that u know it's q gross. that like it's so corrupted. ppl who don't run for comm get in and all. like i thought ernest was very impartial and i had high hopes but i doesn't really seem so? like the VELA ppl feel like quitting together and joining BEMSOC. but thing is BEMSOC is so boring and career-based...might nt be really fun... sighhh...

anyway i got a new sim card delivered already so i can msg and call now! i'm so happy. was so lost for that one and a half days without it. hmmmm...

my cousin is so happening...

okay. gtg back to my readings....byeeee.

hmmm....some stupid asshole stole my phone yesterday. so darn irritating and upsetting.
was studying with weiqi at the starbucks coffeebean and this dumb ass malay guy who pretended to be studying stole my phone when i went to the toilet...and weiqi was still sitting there okay. super bold..

tsk. but i still had to go back to sch after that for PF1101 tut even though i was seriously considering not going..but nic convinced me that it was impt, and anyway they count attendance for participation marks...and tutorial's only once in 2 wks.

so anyway. i have alot alot to do. i'm so sleepy but i don't have time to sleep. But am looking forward to VELA bbq later!! (: ggoing to have nice things to eat and all! so it's not so bad...

i have to do my stats tutorial
read one whole book (for total war) and print and read all the new readings.
and watch the documentaries for total war
and meet my grp for BTSL
and meet another grp for PF1101
and study my french cause there's so much to do and oral's coming up soon. and i have exerices.
oh. and i have to read fosters.

okokok. byee.
going to do readings now..

ewwwwwwwwww.

so bad mood today...i feel like swearing the whole day away. but that's the mark of a crazy bitch with no brains and i'm not going to be like that.

like i started the day q happy and then i got more and more irritated. firstly the love of my life (at least she thinks she is) was damn darn rude to me. i was being nice by pretending that i wanted to watch the show she wanted to watch so she can watch it...but NOO..she said i don't understand bloody hokkien so i can't freaking understand (even though there are subtitles)???

she was so rude about it. til now steam is coming out of my ears... and then i "liquid papered" away the correct answer from my french quiz (!!!!) and NOW. nic just told me the noisy girls and their sidekick boy is in the comm....MY GOD. what's the world coming to???

i feel that life's so unfair, the world is discriminating, but that's so childish because only angry and ppl who can't ctrl their tempers will feel so. oh well.

but i've already decided that i WILL NOT initiate speech or contact with my dear "love of my life" anymore. you can really GAD.

byeeeee. ugly things.

i'm indulging on a magnum to keep myself awake.
it's kinda sad cause i forced myself to go for a run this morning to try to maintain fitness, and then here i am eating this now.
in 5 mins, i'll make myself start studying for french quiz tomorrow. i'm not really that stressed about it cause it's not oral. but like i really have to listen properly and memorize all my stuff.
most stressful part is the face that i have to think of something good and substantial for my crazy online forum for total war. like this brian farrell is already warning us (but i know there are alot of damn enthu crazy hist students who post like mad)...
i'm so stressed. and yesterday i had this crazy boy encounter...

like his name is golden mountain.
halfway through the lecture, he was sitting like next to me, and then he said, are you okay? you look quite lost. my name is golden mountain, maybe i can help you.
i was like huh? (cause farrell was giving a break and i was just staring into space cause i'm so darn tired..)
so i said i was stephanie, and i was okay i understood the stuff...although i would need to go home and review everything and get the proper details. like even though i get the gist of it....

well anyway we just talked about history. he told me how he's doing pol science mods and history mods. and how they're super similar to what we're doing now...and then he asked whether i mind exchanging numbers. so we exchanged numbers. and i thought that was that.

after the end of the lesson, i was so tired i really wanted to go home...but he waited for me! like while i packed...omg. so i thought we were going to walk out of the lect together...but NO! he asked me to eat dinner with him...and i said okay, where? (because he looks slightly mad and like he will kill me if i don't oblige)..so we walked to fongseng to eat...

and when we sat down i saw the blond boy and this other guy walking past. i almost wanted to say to golden mountain maybe we shold join them...but like i didn't. ): ): anyway, we sat down and talked for damn long before we finally ordered food ( and there isn't anything but nasi lemak there = immense calories) ): ):

he talked so much and ate so slowly i finished so much ahead of him, i think it was so obvious i was in "ready to go mode" cause i didn't even put down my bag...but nvm. he continued talking and started stripping his drumstick bare and i don't know why although it's a normal think i felt a hint of being disgusted. anyway when he was finally done with his rice i almost died when he went to buy a soft drink. !!! and since when anyone drinks coke for 45 MINS?!?! and he still refuses to leave or stop talking. so i finally decided to ask him how he goes home(TO HINT)...and he was like u take 151 right? i was like eh yes...and we went home together...!! even though he doesn't usually take this way, he totally sent me home. and he asked me 3 times to go on thurs for his christian group! and he asked me 2 times to eat lunch with him on thurs. i really really don't want to!!

i'm sorry, i don't really know him? and like he talks about nothing but history...and he hints all the time how his friends are the most impt to him ( he looks at me and says that he thinks spending 1 hr with a friend is much better time spent then 1 hr reading his readings as much as he likes them)...and he looks at me with that look in his eyes? i'm damn scared.
and i barely know him, he wants a copy of my timetable!!! i'm really scared...someone help me. oh. and he wants to take the same mod as me next sem...i swear i'm doomed. doomed. doomed.

he has a slightly crazy look? i feel really bad about saying this sorta things cause he's not horrible? but he's scary. he's half my size and he laughs to himself. oh godd. save me.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAREST KT!

5 yrs since i've known you and the 4th birthday i've seen through...am glad and happy but will talk about this later...

hsin msged me today to tell me that she just msged because she's gotten her departure date and that she just wanted to let me know in case i kill her if she leaves without be even knowing...

after i heard that i was like stoned?
i really don't know why...and i kinda got sad.. it's like although i knew about it all along it's like it finally sinked in? and like even though throughout all the jc days i never talked to hsin, whenever we meet(cause of lisa and during our hk trip) we have a great time and we'll just talk like we've never been 'apart' and we still understand each other...


like i just started thinking about all the sec sch days where we used to have the craziest nonsense. like sunflower's super secret crush on hsin, how she used to laugh at mushroom's butt and mole. (changed name as have to cover person's identity),her arrow and her whiny-ness...i was kinda laughing to myself on the bus, it's crazy...

wish could turn back time and change or takeaway so many things...like i can't be as close to lisa and jo like we used to or want to...

can't even be close enough to hui,phong, wqin...

hmmm...

think i'll really have to make an effort to keep in close touch with my friends...esp the potential few i know and esp hope will last...

like lisa and jo and maybe hsin...
like hui, phong, wqin...
like weiqi, mary and mel...
like ph, jamie and of course kt.

talking about kt, was slightly sad about the watch but i guess hui and lisa has tried to make me feel/see that it's not that bad...sometimes i wished she would reply longer msgs and give proper answers but i guess it's just her and i must/will accept that cause i'm already so used to it...and i really treasure our 'friendship' so blah blah blah....

i guess that's it. long day at sch again tomorrow. badminton with hy and nic. work hardd.