hmm...
feel like changin the skin of my blog...
so boring. but actually i quite like it.
it's plain.
erm.
told the folks my results already.
and they were quite mean bout it at first.
but i guess after that they were ok.
after they realize dat i really was very sad bout it.
budden i didn't really explain to them anythin except my results and bout chinese.
cause it's like i was tryin to hard not to cry so i cld only think bout tryin not to cry.
my dad hates ppl cryin.
he says it shows dat they are weak.
and he doesn't like me to cry.
so i try my best not to cry in front of him.
yup.
and actually dunch really wanna tok to the finger clique bout my results also.
cause i dunch think they are very happy with their results.
then no pt makin them sadder then they already are.
mayb when evil monster comes back i will tok to her bout it.
at least i tink she will understand.
and she like no me quite well.
cause usually i tell her alot of stuff.
then the folks went to work again.
though todae is deepavali.
funny.
actually they not really go work lah.
just go office do a bit of things.
and i haven't eaten lunch again.
but i totally do not have appetite.
which is totally not me.
bcause i tink i'm a walk on two legs cow...
eat alot alot alot.
haha.
actually i dunch feel dat sad anymore.
vigorously trying to do my chinese papers.
since this morning.
feel like i'm improving.
but maybe i'll feel sad again after i see the papers again.
but i have to learn to be strong.
i'll try.
and i'm sorta sick now.
with all the no sleep much no eat much the past few daes or week.
maybe i've grown thinner.
hopefully.
hungry.
but too lazy to cook.
i have to do chinese.
and i still need to buy clothes for the work exp prog.
but i like totally no mood to shop yet.
mayb nxt week or something.
or mayb after my Os wld be better.
yup.
at least won't feel the stress.
study study study.
will remember to talk to evil monster.
but i think by the time she come back my mood will be back to normal.
then i talk to her.
or else later spoil her mood again.
cause she is also very busy and tired.
and also very very easily sick.
so i tink i betta tok to her like in a good mood abt 'bad things'.
haha. must remind myself to be happy...(:
moo

helo.
i feel like a dumb girl.
got back results todae.
and i feel even more dumb.
don't ask me why.
it's obvious anyway.
dunch understand how i can do so badly when i did study.
really no comments at all.
dunch think i'm as smart as i tot i was anymore.
at least i tot i was nv dumb.
but now i dunch think so anymore.
dumb dumb dumb.
i've disappointed myself greatly.
and i really got nothing to say.
there's nothin i feel proud of except for my maths d.
really.
nothin. nothin at all.
hardwork doesn't pay.
really it doesn't.
although i spend more time on the weaker subjects.
nothin happen.
nothin at all.
dunch feel like studying anymore.
study or dunch study dunch even make any difference...
M O O