omg. peanuts are really damn addictive u know.
i wish they didn't have so much fat and calories etc etc in them so i can just eat and not feel damn guilty.
these china peanuts are esp good. they're really salty but not in the stinging way but in the tasty and i can't stop eating way.
(:

i went for 1 hr tutorial and i'm home. supposedly i have 4 hrs to study before my next lecture and then dinner with weiqi at maxwell cause she has weird cravings. kinda far, but i'm always there for my friends what. HAHAHA. no la ok. i'm joking.

actually i think i have a secret birthday wish eh. doesn't matter whether it's fulfilled this year or the next. sigh...think q hard to achieve so nvm. no prizes for guessing correctly. although the other day i was looking through my photos and i think the best birthdays i had(since my secondary sch days ok, not counting those macs bdae parties etc) was when i was 16 where the food club, hse caps and kt came and when i was 18 with the cj gang and kt came also. the 16 bdae was just damn drama and i had the best birthday present on earth(still hanging in the rm). and the 18 bdae i remember we ate at fish and co. i think it was happy and funny cause phong was damn lousy at lying and i found out she called kt along although it was meant to be a surprise. HAHA. and in both celebrations all my favourite ppl were there together so it was rather good.

don't really feel like having this really big affair either on my 21st bdae. probably something small and cosy and happy. i don't want to host a few thousand bucks party and invite ppl i don't really know or care abt at least for the moment. i don't why it's a "tradition" like thing that we must do that seriously. although i must say i'm very glad for my friends cause they're very nice to me and they know the things that make me feel q happy.

i was talking to huihui the other day and we were talking about our best friends and close friends. and she told me i can't just write my will and pass to her so i guess i'll have to wait til i start earning and get a lawyer. |: so anyway huihui was telling me how she just has this special bond/feeling when she's with xiaoyan and i totally understand that. i guess i really appreciate that sort of intangible forces and i think it makes me appreciate such things much more because it's so abstract. whatever the case, although i do indeed feel that i have a best friend who will be the first person i will think of if anything happens, i think i'm q scared to tell her about it. seriously. haha.

omg. i don't know what i'm talking about. i think i ate too much peanuts, i can't think straight now that's why. i feel like i'm drunk. okay. byee.

omg. i'm damn bloody irritated with my brother.
seriously he never fails to drive me up the wall. tsk. now he's saying how he will make sure he sign some "I O U" to acknowledge that he borrows something from me next time since i always ACCUSE him of borrowing my things.
asshole. he's damn shitty and he cares only about himself. selfish piece of shit.

anyway, i'm officially done with with french this sem and one mod down, 5 more to go. Finally can start studying for the exams proper. stressed leh. i don't even know how i'm ever going to handle the PF1103 and PF1104 modules. actually i'm q excited to study...but i'm just going to spend q abit of $$ and that saddens me. HAHA. anyhow, omg. i must say. you know i was supposed to teach this china girl BUT BUT BUT when the guy ask me to send all my credentials, then he realized the girl's going back to china. tsk. there goes my potential 1st assignment. i wonder why it's so hard for me to find tuition kids. SIGH.

on a side note, i think the oral and test today was okay, so i'm satisfied for now( of course until i see my grade i'm still worried). (:

hmm.
i'm slightly disgusted by maxim magazine like pictures, actions and poses.
i'm q scared of people like that. seriously.
|: do not understand.
will you consider that individuality/uniqueness or wild enough to be interesting.
i just totally dislike people who do or attempt weird stuff/wild stuff/ stuff they don't exactly want to do actually just so they can tell people they have done it and apparently it portrays one as very cool, very exciting, very different or even to the outrageous extent of being very hip. q gross.

i signed up for 8 camps today i think i'm mad.
but i can choose to reject some later. so that's not exactly a problem.
so anyway, this morning went for trng part 1 for the camp facilitator thing and i thought we were just going to have some briefing. but omg. i wore a skirt and i still had to roll in the kinda muddy field in the middle of clarke quay area. this hippo bus went pass(but i'm q sure it's nt weiqi. HAHA) so it's okay.

but the mini games we had to play were q fun la. i think i'm looking forward to my first camp next month( even after considering how 'well paid' i am). so after the briefing i had lunch with a few other facils and it's weird because i nv would have thought of myself doing that. i'm just not a sociable person when i don't think it's necessary and when i don't feel like. but i did suggest we go eat together. |: funny. it was okay. and i went back to sch for the immersion briefing and to study with safri abang.

i'm was q excited cause maybe MAYBE i found someone to take the flight with me ALTHOUGH maybe on second thoughts i don't think i should be that thrilled because we're going to spend alot of time together on the flight and i don't think i'll feel like talking random stuff with people i hardly know. plus he/she will be able to know my sleeping habits and know every little thing that i do. and omg i might even have to give out my favourite aisle seat because he/she wants it more than i do ( i love the aisle seat cause i'm a avid toilet goer).

hmmm. but cherlynn and andy and this two other girls might meet me at lyon airport so it's still q good. so i won't have to drag my luggage around like some stupid lost sheep whilst waiting for 8pm and to meet my host family. i think probably one of those wkends we'll take the TGV to paris. i really want to. seriously..

anyhow, i've already decided i'm going to lyon's june gay festival(I'M NOT GAY i'm just going to check it out). rather exciting.
but before i get o so excited, i have my final french oral and test tomorrow so i better start thinking autorise/interdire/la meilleur etc etc first...

abang is really damn bitter about his french grades. it's funny. he was telling me some abstract philo old and later self thing just now. rather interesting....

omg. we lost against hollandse a yesterday. well, it's not like we were expecting to win la. but well. anything can happen. so who knows right?
so yesterday after game had dinner w weiqi,mel and manjit.
the waffles ice cream after dinner was really q heavenly leh.
seriously.
i don't know why i just thought it was damn good. with maple syrup and all.
anyway, the day before i just had this sudden craving so i took a bus to railway mall( i know i could have walked! i'm lazy okay)
and i bought a packet of green beans and sago seeds to make dessert at like 11pm.
it's really q random i know.

anyway, i forced my family to eat this filling dessert(with tangyuan btw) at that kind of time. HAHA
okie. i'm going for my camp trng part 1 tomorrow. i don't really mind going but a small part of me doesn't really want to because the pay's so shitty i don't want to commit so much time. i really want to earn some fast cash la. i need to pay for my expenses what. haha. i'm sorry if i sound very $$ minded.

we had our last french class today and then it's test on wed. it's kinda sad cause i don't think francesca manganelli-leng will be teaching french 3. ): i'm really going to miss her cause she's very good. i even voted her for some outstanding teaching award. HAHA. that aside, i'm q okay happy today cause i got to eat soup spoon again and i tried the set meal with the wrap. and i wasn't intending to eat that cause i wanted to save some $$ for drinks when i study after that but i was tempted when i saw this woman eating it. so okay. i ate q abit.

omg. i don't even know why i'm saying whatever i said in the paragraph above. i must be damn bored. probably because i can't start studying until i've bathed but i'm too full now so i have to wait. and whilst doing that i must do and talk some nonsense here. okok. byee.

i really really feel like shitting now.
probably i will. sigh. i'm so tired from i think training yesterday.
i'm aching all over. did like random lunges with weights. and i refused to do the calves action because it's not like my calves very very small.
anyway, going to have a game later somemore.

i can't seem to study. we freaking have a last big test on wed and she hasn't even taught everything. i'll have to study very hard on mon and tues i guess. plus there's oral. omg. i haven't even decided what i want to be. should i be the cashier like i practiced with andy the other day or should i choose something more ambitious and less stupid like a cashier?
hmm....

you know now i don't dare to look at my bank account because i know i get very upset each time i see the amount. HAHA.
omg. i sound so. i don't know. okok. i must admit. i'm q materialistc so i hope to earn abit this summer to pay for my expenses and probably some nice stuff for my friends and family as well. fine.

that aside, exams coming soon. omg. i really need to buck up on my air drafts, air quality, lighting and acoustics knowledge and calculations. and also IT. sigh. it's really killing me softly. tsk.

game game laterrr.... can't wait. HAHA. the sun is shining so bright. oh man.