have just been readin blogs again.
as usual.
actually wanted to talk to THE FOLKS just now one.
really got the urge to lohz.
i mean.
i really want to make them understand me and wat i'm goin through.
i mean to everyone it must seem not enough to be counted as alot.
wateva.
but i mean.
i want there to be a certain understanding.
and come to some agreements so dat everyone can be happy.
bcause it wld too selfish if i was the only one who was happy.
and in the end i made angry instead.
i understand dat i cannot blame them for being angry with me.
i mean most of the times they are not home.
and when the few times dat they are.
i'm not home.
they don't get to see me much.
and dat's what makes them so angry i guess.
i guess i'm tryin to understand frm their pt of view,
but obviously i still can't help but be like be abit irritated.
and u noe how when ppl are angry they will start talking louder.
and then i was thinkin if i go and talk to them,
won't end up even worse?
shouting shouting and more shouting.
it must be due the amt of time spent apart that i tink there is a distance btwn THE FOLKS and i.
the are busy workin ppl and i'm a really busy daughter (: haha. lame lame.
dat's why maybe the reason dat i didn't wat they were goin through all along was bcause i didn't have someone to guide me and tell me why?
i don't noe.
dat's why i've always longed for a older sister (which i noe i will nv get)
or an extra marmie. haha. (:
someone who wld be there for me when i need someone to talk to.
someone i can trust.
i mean i understand dat i can talk to pei and a.d.f.j abt stuff.
but i guess i prefer to talk to someone older than me?
mayb it's bcause of a lack of security?
i don't noe wat u call dat.
wateva.
shall not say anymore.
thousand and one things happened todae and i am so angry.
i didn't slp yesterdae at all and as if dat's not bad enough,
i didn't sleep again todae.
see?
i'm still up.
at 4.30 in the morning.
a while more i got to go sch already.
M O O
as usual.
actually wanted to talk to THE FOLKS just now one.
really got the urge to lohz.
i mean.
i really want to make them understand me and wat i'm goin through.
i mean to everyone it must seem not enough to be counted as alot.
wateva.
but i mean.
i want there to be a certain understanding.
and come to some agreements so dat everyone can be happy.
bcause it wld too selfish if i was the only one who was happy.
and in the end i made angry instead.
i understand dat i cannot blame them for being angry with me.
i mean most of the times they are not home.
and when the few times dat they are.
i'm not home.
they don't get to see me much.
and dat's what makes them so angry i guess.
i guess i'm tryin to understand frm their pt of view,
but obviously i still can't help but be like be abit irritated.
and u noe how when ppl are angry they will start talking louder.
and then i was thinkin if i go and talk to them,
won't end up even worse?
shouting shouting and more shouting.
it must be due the amt of time spent apart that i tink there is a distance btwn THE FOLKS and i.
the are busy workin ppl and i'm a really busy daughter (: haha. lame lame.
dat's why maybe the reason dat i didn't wat they were goin through all along was bcause i didn't have someone to guide me and tell me why?
i don't noe.
dat's why i've always longed for a older sister (which i noe i will nv get)
or an extra marmie. haha. (:
someone who wld be there for me when i need someone to talk to.
someone i can trust.
i mean i understand dat i can talk to pei and a.d.f.j abt stuff.
but i guess i prefer to talk to someone older than me?
mayb it's bcause of a lack of security?
i don't noe wat u call dat.
wateva.
shall not say anymore.
thousand and one things happened todae and i am so angry.
i didn't slp yesterdae at all and as if dat's not bad enough,
i didn't sleep again todae.
see?
i'm still up.
at 4.30 in the morning.
a while more i got to go sch already.
M O O