have just been readin blogs again.
as usual.
actually wanted to talk to THE FOLKS just now one.
really got the urge to lohz.
i mean.
i really want to make them understand me and wat i'm goin through.
i mean to everyone it must seem not enough to be counted as alot.
wateva.
but i mean.
i want there to be a certain understanding.
and come to some agreements so dat everyone can be happy.
bcause it wld too selfish if i was the only one who was happy.
and in the end i made angry instead.
i understand dat i cannot blame them for being angry with me.
i mean most of the times they are not home.
and when the few times dat they are.
i'm not home.
they don't get to see me much.
and dat's what makes them so angry i guess.
i guess i'm tryin to understand frm their pt of view,
but obviously i still can't help but be like be abit irritated.
and u noe how when ppl are angry they will start talking louder.
and then i was thinkin if i go and talk to them,
won't end up even worse?
shouting shouting and more shouting.
it must be due the amt of time spent apart that i tink there is a distance btwn THE FOLKS and i.
the are busy workin ppl and i'm a really busy daughter (: haha. lame lame.
dat's why maybe the reason dat i didn't wat they were goin through all along was bcause i didn't have someone to guide me and tell me why?
i don't noe.
dat's why i've always longed for a older sister (which i noe i will nv get)
or an extra marmie. haha. (:
someone who wld be there for me when i need someone to talk to.
someone i can trust.
i mean i understand dat i can talk to pei and a.d.f.j abt stuff.
but i guess i prefer to talk to someone older than me?
mayb it's bcause of a lack of security?
i don't noe wat u call dat.
wateva.
shall not say anymore.
thousand and one things happened todae and i am so angry.
i didn't slp yesterdae at all and as if dat's not bad enough,
i didn't sleep again todae.
see?
i'm still up.
at 4.30 in the morning.
a while more i got to go sch already.
M O O

erm.
very long nv post already.
lazy mahz.
erm.
i don't noe.
have been readin ppl's blogs.
why is everyone like so erm into those relationships?
okay wateva.
maybe they really are erm don't noe how to say?
but i'm just glad dat i'm free and easy lohz.
nobody dat needs me.
anyway who needs me lohz.
i'm so stoopid.
and am such an irritating pig.
so wateva lah.
guess evil monster is starting to get irritated with me already.
or izzit bcause she very tired and busy these daes?
nah.
don't noe.
but i guess i have to understand lohz.
dat she is very xin ku and everything.
and busy.
i just hate dat stoopid idiot freaking pig with mould cabbage in facai.
wateva.
or izzit dat this sort of things just always last really short?
i don't noe.
the problem is...
sigh sigh.
i just tink she doesn't like erbz to keep bao gaoin to me everything i guess.
so i just wanna say dat i'm really sorrie.
and i guess i've said dat many times too.
so.
erbz.
wateva lah huh.
my words don't mean much anymore.
anyway since she heard it so many times before.
sigh lah huh.
wateva.
i just cannot stand dat freakin idiot.
i can stand how irritating he is.
ok.
not saying anymore.
M O O

ok wateva.
wanted to post just now one.
budden the entry was too long.
haha.
really wateva lohz.
i read someone's blog just now.
and guess she's havin a problem with me.
but still acts like there isn't any problem.
i really think it is wateva lohz.
and i don't want to give a damn about it.
i mean. there's no use.
so i shall just leave it as it is.
but here's one sentence to u.
don't think u're the only one,
we are too.
wateva. not sayin any more.
will just get me more agitated.
and i don't want this to happen.
sigh sigh.
guess everyone misses obs like anythin.
but seriously i don't miss it as much as i missed sch.
sch rocks more.
missed everyone.
missed pei.
missed bein together with dorc.cabbage, joanne WEI, turkey and springy.
haha.
and of course evil monster.
whao lohz.
fridae first thing saw evil monster.
was so happy.
almost want to cry already.
haha.
lame lame.
then went dinner.
eat eat eat.
good good good food.
haha.
marche rocks.
then yesterdae eat good good good food again.
yumm...
ate at some place dat was cold until want to die.
whao.
teeth chattering like anything.
had a great time.
haha.
but mascot...
got to rush lohz.
and they say thurs will be announcing it.
wateva.
haha.
whao lohz/
i really totally missed my bed after obs.
and my moo moos.
they are my life source.
haha.
and my com.
and my phone.
my bao bei phone.
totally loved the mnc game.
looooove evil monster's palm.
the aqua game also not baddin.
sigh.
make me feel like buyin it.
but nah.
don't think i will.
can i just buy the game?
haha.(:
wateva.
actually i quite missed obs.
like humpty dumpty and tweety bird.
they are my laughables