ahaha.
forgot to say.
i lost 2kg!
yay.
haha.
but i'm still as fat as ever.
i'm in quite a gd mood.
and am lookin forward to nxt wk.
and nxt nxt nxt wk! (:
had so much fun with jamie todae and yesterdae.
haha.
we have a hell of a time together always
during exams.
koala bear and me.
gummy bear.
haha.
dat's me.
good morning and koala bear calls me dat.
sometimes.
anyway.
i've decided í want to have my usual happy life.
and nothin is gonna stop me.
i hope.
evil monster is rite.
now's not the time to think bout such stuff.
wanna think also think later.
toked to evil monster for quite a while yesterdae.
the first time tok to her bout probs.
the second time toked to her to make myself laugh.
and make myself in a happy mood.
and true.
i felt much better after tokin to evil monster.
i loooooove evil monster like anything lohz.
haha.
she's always there for me one.
mommy mommy.
i really hope i can be there for her too.
hmph. then i wldn't feel so bad.
dat she always is there for me.
but i can't help her.
somemore she always so busy.
sigh sigh sigh.
somemore now dat i think [erbz] don't trust me
wonderin whether i'm trustworthy.
someone tell me won't u?
M O O

toked to pei todae.
for quite long.
had heart to heart tok.
which we always have.
dat's why i say i can trust her.
cause she trusts me.
i hope.
i don't noe.
but she says she doesn't trust anyone in the world.
i also trust my mommy.
and i tell her everything dat's botherin me.
but i noe she will nv confide in me.
haha.
i mean.
nvm.
hello?
i think dat's too much to ask.
anyway pei.
i'll be there for u no matter how it gets ok.
u have to be happy.
and forget her.
i noe u need time.
and everyone will give u dat.
remember who loves u,
and who loves u not.
love those who love u.
don't love those who don't.
dat's for me, and dat's for u.
don't worry,
we have evil monster to guide us in our lives.
and remember.
don't tell anyone who's evil monster ok.
haha.
better to keep it secret.
anyway.
to the two or three ppl left in my life,
at the moment,
i love u guys for being there.
and u are so impt.
i'll nv forget u all.
muacks (:
M O O

dear hsin,
i read yr blog.
u shld be glad u got 10.
i only got 3.
maybe 2.
and one might not even be.
my friend.
don't bother.
no need to noe who dat person is.
i just am not in a gd mood these daes.
i'm bloggin so unlike my usual self.
i'm suppose to be happy all the time.
was abit happy todae.
after tokin with my mommy.
but then saw sir.
and got reminded of so much stuff.
i cried abit lohz.
ok.
this is so unlike my usual self.
maybe if i just make do with wat i have
i wld be a happier person.
be it 2 or 10 or wateva,
at least there is still one.
or hopefully two.
but don't worry.
i'll make sure i live my usual life.
and maybe i can concentrate more on the ppl
dat are really impt to me
the ppl who stayed by.
these are the ppl i really love.
nvm.
wld be happy.
must go back to my usual self.
cannot be angry and sad anymore.
i'm supposed to cheer ppl up,
and make ppl laugh.
not the other way round.
so now,
í'll try.
M O O

ARGHHHH!!
okok...i'm just so totally angry like anything todae.
and only joanned and my mommy noes i'm angry.
bah.
wateva.
am not goin to say why i'm angry on this.
it wld be too obvious.
and anyway.
not everybody is supposed to noe anyway.
just want to call someone dat i can tell everthing to.
but i just realize now dat there isn't anyone
dat i trust as much anymore.
except maybe my mommy
and pei.
and joanne.
bah.
they are like the only ppl left in my life now lohz.
ok.
maybe i'm saying all these cause i'm just too angry.
but anyway.
wateva lah.
no need to say why i'm so angry here.
joanne.
mommy.
maybe pei.
noe abt it gd enough already.
but joanne doesn't noe.
obviously pei doesn't noe too.
and mommy doesn't noe.
so nobody noes.
except me.
*faint*
i want to tell somebody!
bah.
M O O

stoopid joanne wei mao yu.
haha. made me wait for her like how long?
erbz. and pei also came home with us.
abandon me like anything lah dat woman.
took the train with evil monster.
bah.
no need to noe who's dat.
and i lost my way like anything.
erbz.
then finally found the way.
then joanne ask me to go back to where it started.
redhill mrt station.
to wait for her.
*faint*
wateva.
haha. my mommy laughed like anything.
erbz. laughed and laughed.
she just likes to laugh at other's misery.
evil evil.
finally at home.
and am super tired.
cannot sleep now.
got lots to do.
smilez.
my mommy has indirectly infleunced/ motivate me to study.
yay.
haha.
need to ask her stuff.
later.
M O O